I have evolved as a mother. I used to fret and fuss about mother's day, and dream of a day with no mom duty, everything planned perfectly..... breakfast in bed, a nice soak in the tub, time to blow out my hair, and my hair would be perfect, just right, then I would attend church and my children would be extra quiet, sitting and smiling, not poking each other. I would have hugs all day, and handmade gifts with little notes expressing their divine adoration for me. I would eat chocolate cake and have flowers delivered to my bedside, while reading the newest edition of Martha Stewart Living.
A few years back, (yes it has taken me that long), I had a moment of reality. Mother's day is not about me, it is about serving others, and celebrating the women in my own life who have been examples of goodness and light, holding close the little moments of motherhood that need to be remembered.
Last mother's day I had the chance to be with my mom as she visited her sister in the hospital suffering from ovarian cancer. It was truly a sweet gift to be part of that experience. This is the mother I have been blessed with, she is an example of giving life to others. Her sister is a mother who has been through hard things, and she is a fighter.
This is my son who is in Maine right now. I haven't seen him for almost a year, he is working so hard, serving others and he is the happiest he has ever been. I miss him.
I talked on the phone to him on mother's day for almost an hour. My heart skipped a beat as I heard his voice again. How my arms ache to hug him, and mess his red hair. I remembered him as a tiny little thing, my first feelings of intoxicating joy, no other love is like a mother's.
I did have an amazing mothers day this year thanks to my sweet husband and kiddies that made me dinner, wrapped up little gifts and even told me how thankful they were to have me as their mom. I did however, want to pull the covers over my head this morning as I ventured through the mess of a party day yesterday. When do the mother's day fairies come to clean? If you see them send them my way will you?
Happy Happy Monday......